The Interview

Fingers crossed I think it went ok!

Im pretty sure I pulled it together real well, I dont function to well in the mornings, tend to get a little tongue tied, SO I got up extra early, put on those feel good songs “Dont stop me now Queen” Has a feel good breakfast with the kids! Ive got my fingers tightly crossed, I really think this could be what I need a whole new shake up! I certainly need the money, Have gone to bed every night thinking of working, Everything about the job sounds like it would work.

Focusing on the positives, I held my own in the interview, The interviewer was also a single mum with cold sores lol .. I didn't point hers out nor draw attention to my own, but boy was I pleased too see sores on her mouth! Ive been having nightmares about my lip for days ~ Managed to cover it pretty well but obvious the skin is damaged their so you would have been able to see!

Well I should find out by the end of next week, if Ive been lucky or not .. Who knows, Its would be amazing to get the first job I applied for! Ohhh please please please please please ..... let it be me!

me & my camera!

Ive decided to attempt another 365 project except its not a 365! I've joined the "year in pictures" group over on flickr, Im not going to take a self portrait every day, I know what I look like. It will be more a chronicle of my life thought-out the year 2011, as I continually work towards keeping afloat and not sinking under to a tidal pull of depression, loneliness & chaos. My love is with photography and in the past its what's kept my spirits high giving me a reason to go for that walk and shoot some photos. Im not promising my self this project will be something beautiful or well composed. My self portrait 365 anded up being so much about vanity, I spent more time editing a photo to make it work rather than working to get the photo right. Im not even making this about the perfect image, if I can improve my skills along this journey then what a bonus that will be. This will be about me and my year with my camera. I aim to use this blog to jourmal some of the more private thoughts that I wont put on flickr.

Soup .... I gotta try to get some more goodness into me, ive felt so tired this last few weeks, I believe its my bodies way of saying im in danger of getting real sick if I dont sort it out ..

Thanks cat!

 Thanks to my cat I now look like complete shit, Already battling that run down feeling, having a mouth full of Canker Sores, and a fresh Cold Sore on my lip ~ My cat decides he will jump on my face in the early hours of this morning, busting my lip ~ Not only did it startle me and cause me to scream, cry waking two of the kids, but ouch it sure hurt and my god did it bleed! ~ T.h.a.n.k.s. C.a.t



gonna look great for my job interview on Tuesday!




He's just a big softie, and was just jumping up on the bed for a snuggle.

In a bit if a blue funk

Ohh pull up a chair, im hosting my anual pitty party

This is usually a party just for me, so you are intruding you know … but being your here you might as well stay, The pretty "feel sorry for yourself tissues" are over there, grab a pack.
Clothes a little too tight? Yeah mine too, grab some chocolate,Its always good to shovel a little more down your mouth when you've obviously eaten way too much in the first place!

Oh the joys of January ….Finding it very hard to get motivated, seems like im taking two steps back each time I climb this very steep hill. I didn't set my self any new years resolutions this year, I figured Id save my self the set back of failing. I loved Christmas so much, I just love being able to switch off and have all my family and friends with me as we hide in this little bubble of magic for a few days. But then comes the new year and smack straight back into reality and that at times can seems a pretty lonely place. I do love the calmness of being alone, and being able to lock the door and just savour it being us “ the kids and me” But the normal comes like a bump every year. After being surrounded for nearly two weeks straight, the silence when routine starts back is hard, The children back at school, being with their dad. While the full on can be exhausting the empty of them not here leaves me feeling a little forlorn, Left alone to face the reality of my house that jack built! I love my house, if I could just afford to keep up the maintenance on it, The damp this year seems worse that ever, of course it would do, because I never dealt with it from last year, The slugs are back in military force this year looking meaner and scary that ever before! BREAKING THE FOURTUNE COOKIE I do have a job interview this coming week, I have everything so tightly crosses, Im seeing the £ in my sleep. Thinking just what I could do with the extra income each month is getting me through. Now if I could just get rid of these blooming cold sores that are plaguing my mouth, I think I can hold my own in the interview!

It will be February before we know it and that always seems like a much friendlier month ~  January leaves this blue funk feeling.

Happy New Year

                  
So here it is 2011 ~ I wonder what changes this year will bring with it. One thing for sure is im not writing my self a huge list of resolutions, There seems little point, I didn't really tick many off of my last years list! I just aim to try and be the best person I can be, and enjoy this precious life with my children, family and friends.

Merry Christmas

Think this is the first year Ive realised just how much we need Christmas . Ive always loved it! But this year ive really felt the love, really needed the togetherness that its brought. I mean yeah sure its stressful in parts but its a manageable stress a almost contented stress, Ive done it enough years now that I feel the last few years ive had the December craziness wrapped up! This year more than any other year I truly appreciate the holiday period, being able to shut down from the every day worries and stress and just enjoy living in the moment, Enjoying being with the people I care about. These last few days have been a real Joy, Started off Friday Christmas eve, with a unexpected Visit from Mona, and then a visit from Fred while the children were out with my mum and Dev. Christmas day was just perfect, spent with my favourite people eating my favourite foods ( I had chocolate cake for breakfast ~ I love my kids) the giving and receiving was more perfect that I could have hoped for & boxing day with my mum, Dev and mona, just enjoying the moment …. Tomorrow is expected to hold another beautiful day as we spend more fun times having what's certainly turned into a well looked forward Game Day”

Cheryls Birthday

With Cheryls birthday fast approaching the kids and I put together a mini music movie of, to help us feel close and keep her memories alive, I know she will remain in our hearts for ever, but they are so young still I want to help them keep those personal memories they have in side them alive in anyway I can ...