A quote

Dreams are nature's answering service - don't forget to pick up your messages once in a while. ..

Dreams

                                     

I like quotes ...When I dont have the words to express what im feeling I can usually find  understanding in a quote ...I wonder what my dreams are trying to tell me at the moment. I know life Is all over the place just now but my dreams are even crazier

worlds apart ...

Have just spent the last few days getting to know Mona … “ my new cousin” Mona is my step dads ( I will in time write about him) niece. She is off to university in Leicester on Tuesday. Mona arrived here Monday from Calcutta and is starting to face all the changes that life in the UK will throw her way. Our weather for one, I'm not really gonna blog for to long about it, but really I don't know what we would talk about if it wasn't for our unpredictable sky! Ive enjoyed my time with her, the children have enjoyed her, we sang songs, strummed away on her guitar, enjoyed a familiar movie. And stayed up into the small hours getting to know each other and sharing our lives and telling story's of our families as well as comparing the differences in our countries …

    

Some times you just click with people, a million differences can mean you have so much to share and learn,

I just love it when unexpected visitors appear ~ :: Back step::  I feel im currently experiencing every emotion that go hand in hand with pain of my twisted, broken family, and that of watching knowing a special life is being so cruelly taken away. Im trying hard to except what is and ive been letting myself soak up the love that family and friends are just so freely showering me with in lots of different ways ~ Today my brother James,who ive not seen in over a year, but who over the last few months has been in constant contact,came to visit, I didn't realise how much I had needed to see him, until I saw him today ..
Its like when we spoke on the phone, he was hearing what wasn't being said and he understood.So he came we, laughed we played on the sand, just like big kids, we joked and we talked ... we hung out and enjoyed our time. Some times it really is the actions not the words that make the biggest difference.

Fine family moment ...Crystal,Me,James,Lindsey & Euan, Cayleb, Charday, as it was a last min visit Sammie had already made plans to go out with her grandad so unfortunately didnt get  to see them.

       With 2 of my children dring an afternoon on the beach.

It really is the every day things that keep me sane … At the moment I often find my self taking 5 and when I regain myself I find my hands holding up my head ~ Its the things I have absolutely no control over that make me feel as tho i'm crumbling … knowing I can do nothing but the feeling is so deep that I should do something .. Its when its that tough, that just packing up and walking the short trek to the sea front that I know a simple walk is everything, to some it may just be a little seaside town that has very little going for it, but when your up on that sand you could be anywhere and the ugliness of the town is lost and forgotten to the sea .. it truly sparkles when the sun is out and the sand is so golden it could be any place, its beautiful, its my favourite place to go, to skim pebbles, of which after 8 years Im still rubbish at ...A place to be, a place to remember how very lucky I am ..