Wednesday 11 January 2012

Short 3 min up date!








So much has been happening, since I last blogged things seem to be a pretty bleak place at the moment, Dec 2011 Ended on a low and Jan 2012 has started a bit of a struggle.

The plus to all this however is I do have a job! Got a place at KFC. 



I dont really have much time for photography. I need to catch up with my college work!









Thursday 17 November 2011

November



We had some real sad news last week. Dear Gramps. Ray Hardman died aged 89. Bless that man he was star, one of the nicest men id ever known. We distanted from each other a little over the last 10 years, We exchanged cards and letter thoughout the year .. But before our move here him and Nan ( Eve) were a big part of our lives. Ray was born in the village and died in the village, He was buried also in the Village, Man that man was the Village. It wont be the same with him. We didnt make it to the funeral. It was possible. Im sad about that. We did have our own special dinner which we dedicated to him, I got out the photographs of him and spoke to the children of some of the memories I had of him Big C and S shared the memories they had. we said some words and wished him a a Peacful Rest.
Just because someone is no longer a full part of our every day lives, the kindness they showed in the past always stays with us .. and through out memories they will lives on for ever.
Ray Hardman one of the kindest men I knew.

Monday 3 October 2011

CLOCK TICKS

Bloody hell .. I cant believe the weeks are just rolling past so very fast at the moment.

:: Touching wood:: Oh heck i'll touch it again just for double luck, Things seem to be going OK The kids seem to have no fully settled into their new class and school. I truly believe it took me longer to adjust to this than it did them, Im still not sure I really feel that in touch with what is going on in their school lives at the moment, but it is still early days.
Im enjoying my college course, finding it hard to fit time to study in and complete all the home work that's being set, Its all very new, again I just need to manage my time a little better. Ive applied for 3 jobs this week covering the run up to Christmas so fingers crossed something will come of that ~ Its hard to stay hopeful all the time when I just feel like im getting so many knock backs.

The weather has been wonderful the last few days weve had a mini heat wave totally unheard of for October weather ~ Long may it last tho! This sunshine is just what ive been craving!

My favourite tunes at the moment!


Monday 19 September 2011

one year on,

19th September 2011. Its been one whole year since we lost Cheryl.

 A whole year without her. Harley seems real really, still struggling to believe its true, the weeks go so fast It could just be  like Id not seen her for so long, but of course its not, we would never have gone a whole year. I still have moment when for a second I forget, moments when I think its been so long, Not a day goes by when I don't think of her. 

Loosing Cheryl has  made me aware of just how short life is and how we really should take every chance to make sure we are living the best of our life in a way that makes us happy. If I dont like something no longer will I just except that this is my lot I'll change it or fix it best I can.

Im not sure I will ever fully understand how life can end so suddenly, how with all the medical advances we have today some one cant save .. How we cant cure all Cancer .. Maybe in a few more years things will be different ... 



Wednesday 14 September 2011

Eeeek!!!

Today its my turn!

Been a bloody long time since I studied for anything!
First day of college!

Monday 12 September 2011

what in the years ...

So 35 years ago today I made my way into the world .... Born by C section close to midnight, my mums dream to become a mummy was made, after lots of lost pregnancy heartaches I was here to cause havoc for her forever ~ Happy 35 years of mother hood mum.

30 years ago from now, I was getting all excited about my 5th birthday party? Was I really? I duno my memories doesn't go back that far but I probably was, we celebrated my birthday every year with a little party, I cant Imagen not being happy about it!

25 year back from now I hit Double figures being 10 was just the best!

24 years ago I was a bridesmade for my birthday ... My coolest Uncle Gary got married!

19 years ago today I was all grown up and 16 years old .. Lordy lord that sure seems a long time ago!


17 was BIG 18!


15 years ago I was celebrating my first birthday as a Mummy! My beautiful baby girl was 7 months and smiling for england, Celebrating in our first family home, our little flat in Melbourn

14 years ago was the even bigger 21

13 years ago, I was a mummy to two very beautiful little girls, Celebrating in our new home in Shepreth

11 years ago the year 2000 My first birthday of the new centenary also my first with 3 little girls ... My mellinimum  baby!

10 years ago from now I was 25 ... with 3 beautifully growing daughters ~ My first birthday as a single mummy, with lots on my mind as I was preparing my big move to lowestoft .. This was my last birthday in shepreth!

8 years ago today I was fully settled in my new sea side home with my 4th child, my amazing little boy was 2 months old. I got engaged on this date! Well Its a mile stone right, even if it wasnt meant to be, I was now a mummy to 4 wonderful children my little peeps.

5 years ago today after a pretty hard year, was now a single parent again. I celebrated my 30th with a visit and meal out with my family and an evening with my favourite girl, my BBF Netty ... Im sure that cant be 35 years ago! Crazy!

Lots of cool funny stuff has happened in between the years, Ive had some wonderful birthdays!

Today 35 years from that wonderful entrance to my life I wave my beautiful first born off for what could possibly be her last " first day back " at school .. Good Luck in year 11 baby, study hard - exams are coming!

My birthday breakfast ... thanks to my babies ~ Love ya millions you 4 are my world!

All the best baby girl! xxxx

Friday 9 September 2011

Congratulations! Today is your day.

Good luck to the both of you 


Looking wonderfully smart in their uniforms .... Big C's turn on Monday,
Wishing you all wonderful start to your high school years ..
Lots of love 
No other book is more appropriate for September .. I just love this tale ....
Congratulations!
Today is your day.
You’re off to Great Places!
You’re off and away!
You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself any direction you choose.
You’re on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the guy who’ll decide where to go.
You’ll look up and down streets. Look’em over with care. About some you will say, “I don’t choose to go there.” With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet, you’re too smart to go down a not-so-good street.
And you may not find any you’ll want to go down. In that case, of course, you’ll head straight out of town. It’s opener there in the wide open air.
Out there things can happen and frequently do to people as brainy and footsy as you.
And when things start to happen, don’t worry. Don’t stew. Just go right along. You’ll start happening too.
Oh! The Places You’ll Go!
You’ll be on your way up!
You’ll be seeing great sights!
You’ll join the high fliers who soar to high heights.
You won’t lag behind, because you’ll have the speed. You’ll pass the whole gang and you’ll soon take the lead. Wherever you fly, you’ll be best of the best. Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.
Except when you don’t.
Because, sometimes, you won’t.
I’m sorry to say so but, sadly, it’s true that Bang-ups and Hang-ups can happen to you.
You can get all hung up in a prickle-ly perch. And your gang will fly on. You’ll be left in a Lurch.
You’ll come down from the Lurch with an unpleasant bump. And the chances are, then, that you’ll be in a Slump.
And when you’re in a Slump, you’re not in for much fun. Un-slumping yourself is not easily done.
You will come to a place where the streets are not marked. Some windows are lighted. But mostly they’re darked. A place you could sprain both your elbow and chin! Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in? How much can you lose? How much can you win?
And if you go in, should you turn left or right…or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite? Or go around back and sneak in from behind? Simple it’s not, I’m afraid you will find, for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.
You can get so confused that you’ll start in to race down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space, headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place…for people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come, or a plane to go or the mail to come, or the rain to go or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow or waiting around for a Yes or No or waiting for their hair to grow. Everyone is just waiting.
Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite or waiting around for Friday night or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake or a pot to boil, or a Better Break or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants or a wig with curls, or Another Chance. Everyone is just waiting.
No! That’s not for you!
Somehow you’ll escape all that waiting and staying. You’ll find the bright places where Boom Bands are playing. With banner flip-flapping, once more you’ll ride high! Ready for anything under the sky. Ready because you’re that kind of a guy!
Oh, the places you’ll go! There is fun to be done! There are points to be scored. There are games to be won. And the magical things you can do with that ball will make you the winning-est winner of all. Fame! You’ll be famous as famous can be, with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.
Except when they don’t. Because, sometimes, they won’t.
I’m afraid that some times you’ll play lonely games too. Games you can’t win ‘cause you’ll play against you.
All Alone!
Whether you like it or not, Alone will be something you’ll be quite a lot.
And when you’re alone, there’s a very good chance you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants. There are some, down the road between hither and yon, that can scare you so much you won’t want to go on.
But on you will go though the weather be foul. On you will go though your enemies prowl. On you will go though the Hakken-Kraks howl. Onward up many a frightening creek, though your arms may get sore and your sneakers may leak. On and on you will hike. And I know you’ll hike far and face up to your problems whatever they are.
You’ll get mixed up, of course, as you already know. You’ll get mixed up with many strange birds as you go. So be sure when you step. Step with care and great tact and remember that Life’s a Great Balancing Act. Just never forget to be dexterous and deft. And never mix up your right foot with your left.
And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and ¾ percent guaranteed.)
Kid, you’ll move mountains!
So…be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray or Mordecai Ale Van Allen O’Shea, you’re off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So…get on your way!