Loreena McKennitt - The old ways

I seem to flagging a little with everything, My 365 that I started for little C just has come to a stand still I managed a month. My year in pictures that I started for my self didn't even make that . There are just so much that I want to write about, but I never seem to have the words to get the feeling from my head and onto blog.

So I thought I would uploading some of my favourite music ~ I love all most all music, There really is little I dont like,There are lots of pices of music that I can use to relate to my family and friends, sometimes its whole songs at other times just certain lines in the lyrics & the way they are sung can touch so deep with meaning. I just adore this Loreena Mckennit song, Its kinda where I feel im at with big C, It reminds me that shes her own person and not a mini me, that she is her own person, she see through her own eyes not mine and she craves the opportunity to be individual to be her self, to detach from ME, She lives in a world I dont understand. Ive stood many times at the seas edge and watched her, her mood totally dependent on the day, Sometimes in the sun everything sparkles and in the wind the sand and sea matt our hair, …. Sometimes shes happy, she'll smile and giggle and bits of the little girl that I know shines through, flashes of the 7 year old little C of the 4 year olf of the 2 and new born come through .. but the old ways are lost, ive enjoyed them, I remember them but they have past … Now more often she is angry, not really wanting to be with me, but not wanting to be any other place either, Being on the beach is one of my favourite places to be with the children, my most precious memories have been had on the sand … I look at my growing girl who has so much growing to do in just a short a time, I see the anger in her face, Hear the frustration in her voice and I know that no matter what she does how hard she pulls, no matter how much she hurts her self and me .. ill always be pulled to her,

Another song that takes me straight to her is ... I sware ..... I would play this to my belly when I was pregnant with her ...

 

I Swear
All-4-1 

from "All-4-1"
I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky
And I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's weighing on your mind
You can be sure I know my heart

`Coz I'll stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears
And though I make mistakes
I'll never break your heart
And I swear, by the moon and the stars in the sky
I'll be there
I swear, like a shadow that's by your side
I'll be there
For better or worse, till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear
I'll give you every thing I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the walls
And when just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if I still care
`Coz as the time turns the page, my love won't age at all
And I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky
I swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there
For better or worse, till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear
I swear (I swear) by the moon and stars in the sky
I'll be there
I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there
For better or worse, till death do us part
I'll love you with every (single) beat of my heart
I swear, I swear,
Oh... I ... swear...